running down time

Hey wow this time thing has flew by. It seems like just yesterday I was so scared to be doing my interview to see if I would be approved to go on this trip to Tokyo. I was so scared cause I felt like I was going in to the room to be judged by 2 men. Yes our pastor & youth pastor at the time I was sweating so bad. Now , we have only one day left til we board the plane. Scared now yeah a little, wishing I could take my girls, oh yes. God has a reason they will be here and we will be there. I am so not scared of going , but more how afraid I will miss them so very much I will not be able to function. I have a verse that I just keep saying it and now holding on to Jesus is all I can do. Psalm 29:11 The LORD will give strength to His people; The LORD will bless His people with peace. The LORD is sending me on this trip and I need LOTS of strength. I need so much peace that I will be able to sleep at night. The past few nights I have not done that much at all. So many thoughts running around in my warped mind so much to do so many will be in the states that I am not taking care of. BREATHE All things are possible by Christ who strengthens me. I have been in control , right. I am Elizabeth and I can be in control. I know where my girls are and when we go somewhere I pack and I know I am in control. If I don't want to talk to someone on the phone I do not answer, Or I just hang up. I am a ok Christian. I go to church , I talk about God , my family prays , I give thanks daily I even pick kids up & take them to church . I am ok ,right. No I have been praying so hard over the past couple of days for the LORD to send me a devotion and I wanted it to touch someone maybe change their life. I did not mean to change me I was ok, right. I was in control of so much so I thought. God has shown me to let go & let HIM be in control cause HE was to begin with. The beginning & the end is The LORD God. I must turn around and give HIM my life to use for HIS glory. God sent me here with a loud voice and as soon as I said it had to be one way it always changed. GOD is in control. He has handled many many children before and I know HE will again. Praise HIS name I am not in control of anything!